January 12, 2010
I'll Start Again On Monday (Nov. 4, 2009)
This blog entry isn't me being preachy. It's more like me talking to myself. Most of my blogs will be like that. It's therapeutic to get these thoughts down. I'm no expert. I'm just trying to figure out how I got here and how I can continue to change my life for the better.
The last seven or so years have been a series of false starts for me and my husband.
"We'll start on Monday." should have been tattooed on our foreheads.
Do you ever pig out on unhealthy foods with the notion of it being your last "free" meal before starting a new diet?
We would drive all around town to create the perfect spread. Del Taco's deluxe chili cheese fries, Gunther's coffee ice cream sundae, Trader Joe's cheesecake, KFC's BBQ wings... Then when you are so full you can barely move, you swear that you're ready to make the change. Of course you're ready to make the change right then and there. Food isn't very appealing when you're moments from slipping into a food coma.
You start your new diet on Monday and do really great up until around Thursday. You then get lazy and skip the gym and find yourself eating a bunch of stuff you shouldn't. You think to yourself "Well, this week is ruined! I'll just have to start over on Monday."
That's where most of my weight came from. For some reason I thought that each week had to be perfect. I set unrealistic goals.
Usually when I gave in to that cookie or whatever it was, I'd be so mad at myself for "falling off the wagon" that I'd eat 2 dozen cookies instead of just one or two. I'd get to the point where I was full, but I kept stuffing my face. It's kind of a numbness that takes over. I keep thinking to myself "Some day soon, I'll do this right. Until then, I'm just going to shovel it in until my brain tells me to stop."
Most diet plans concentrate on eating right and exercising. Honestly, the most important thing is changing the way you think.
We are addicts. AA doesn't just tell people to stop drinking... They help people to find out why they drink so they can change their behavior.
We need to quit beating ourselves up for going way over on our calories on any given day. It's going to happen. Alcoholics don't HAVE to drink. However, humans DO need to eat.
Hopefully we can recognize what's happening before it gets out of hand. "Am I eating because I'm bored?". "Am I eating because I'm lonely?" Write this stuff down. I'm sure you'll begin to see a pattern.
When you do end up eating a bunch of high calorie foods... Start over again tomorrow or better yet, your next meal. Waiting for Monday leaves far too much time to do major damage to your progress.
Enter your daily nutrition. No matter what!! If you have it in your mind that you are going to eat whatever you want today, log it all in. You don't have to scroll down and look at your total calories. Save that for another day, when you're staying on track. You can look back and see those numbers and hopefully it will help you to do better in the future.